She could be money, cars, fear of the dark,
Your best friends are just strangers in bars.
Whoever she is, whoever she may be,
One thing's for sure, you don't have to worry.
She could be rainy days, minimum wage,
A book that ends with no last page.
Whoever she is, whoever she may be
One thing's for sure, you don't have to worry.
First day back at school since the 23rd... aka, another day in hell. I'm beginning to think once again that I'd be better off in a rehabilitation facility; no drugs, no alcohol, no two faced bitches that act like your friends and stab you in the back terribly and dicks that use you for sex and forget you've basically existed. I'd rather be locked up in a room full of crazy people than have to face life as it is, because the way life as it is may currently be, I spend everyday somewhere I'd rather not be and come home to the only place that usually makes me happy, and wonder if life's really worth living when it just hurts so bad.
Needless to say, I'm having problems with a boy that goes by the name Nicholas Timothy Stone again. I'm sure most of you are familiar with my relationships with him, or recently, lack there of. I have admitted to myself and many other people that I've written him off as a possibility, and I've been attempting to get over him. Then I get lonely and text him, or talk to him online, or get drunk and call him. For some reason, I keep thinking he's worth the time and energy. And for some reason, it's so easy for him to just come in my life, get my hopes up, break my heart and get up and leave like I never mattered to him. I know it's probably all my fault for letting him use me and take advantage of me like he does, or used to, when he wanted a rebound girl, and I was obviously always there. But this time, I've gotten myself - and he made everything worse - into a really huge problem. And he's being a total dickshit about it. Just another thing that makes me question who I could ever trust. I should have never trusted him. I should have just forgotten about him a long time ago. But I gave him everything I had and he still has it, and it's totally not fair that he feels like he can use that against me now, advertantly or inadvertantly. I have every right to be upset with him, it's just, only a few of you understand ALL the shit he's put me through. I hope MC has fun getting to know the real him. Fuck them both.
Your best friends are just strangers in bars.
Whoever she is, whoever she may be,
One thing's for sure, you don't have to worry.
She could be rainy days, minimum wage,
A book that ends with no last page.
Whoever she is, whoever she may be
One thing's for sure, you don't have to worry.
First day back at school since the 23rd... aka, another day in hell. I'm beginning to think once again that I'd be better off in a rehabilitation facility; no drugs, no alcohol, no two faced bitches that act like your friends and stab you in the back terribly and dicks that use you for sex and forget you've basically existed. I'd rather be locked up in a room full of crazy people than have to face life as it is, because the way life as it is may currently be, I spend everyday somewhere I'd rather not be and come home to the only place that usually makes me happy, and wonder if life's really worth living when it just hurts so bad.
Needless to say, I'm having problems with a boy that goes by the name Nicholas Timothy Stone again. I'm sure most of you are familiar with my relationships with him, or recently, lack there of. I have admitted to myself and many other people that I've written him off as a possibility, and I've been attempting to get over him. Then I get lonely and text him, or talk to him online, or get drunk and call him. For some reason, I keep thinking he's worth the time and energy. And for some reason, it's so easy for him to just come in my life, get my hopes up, break my heart and get up and leave like I never mattered to him. I know it's probably all my fault for letting him use me and take advantage of me like he does, or used to, when he wanted a rebound girl, and I was obviously always there. But this time, I've gotten myself - and he made everything worse - into a really huge problem. And he's being a total dickshit about it. Just another thing that makes me question who I could ever trust. I should have never trusted him. I should have just forgotten about him a long time ago. But I gave him everything I had and he still has it, and it's totally not fair that he feels like he can use that against me now, advertantly or inadvertantly. I have every right to be upset with him, it's just, only a few of you understand ALL the shit he's put me through. I hope MC has fun getting to know the real him. Fuck them both.
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