I've been in a fairly creative mood recently. I suppose it's because most great art comes from great emotions. And I'm such an impulsive person that I think it's about time I start coming up with some good shit.
My Friday night was decent. I actually had a really good day at school, too. Lauren came home with me, we went to Hunstman, I saw Kyle and Michael, we met up with Abduluh, and we all chilled with a bunch of different people here and there. After we all went home, we made plans to sneak out with Abduluh and Omar. Omar was going to pick me up, we were gonna smoke, then we were gonna get Lauren and Abdul to come to his place. But they ditched. So Omar and I smoked, chilled, blah blah. Then Abdul took Lo home and Omar took me home, and we crashed. Eventually.
But it was fun; during the car ride back to drop me off, we came up with this freestyle rap about nigga's and KFC chicken and hoes and stupid shit like that. I swear I almost pissed myself. It was so funny.
Then Saturday was good, too. Lauren and I went to the PX and got a bunch of shit for our hair because we fucked it up drastically with the food coloring. Then dropped her off at her house and we both did our own hair. We both turned out looking actually really good, too! And then... that was my Saturday.
Sunday was the big day. The day I've been waiting for for.. a while. I guess. Julia, Hayden and I went to see Alex. I was excited at first, and then I realized, I was gonna get heartbroken again. So we showed up at Alex's house around... one something? Played music, convinced Hayden to get back together with Julia... so on. See, I'd die without that boy, I can guarantee it. We've been through tons together. He's the only shoulder I can really allow myself to cry on these days. Anyhoo. I told him to, cause one of us needed to be happy. He told me things would work out between me and Alex. I told him he was wrong. I was right.
After a while, we decided to walk to the restaurant to chill. About an hour later, in comes Alex's girlfriend. I broke down and cried, lots. Bluh. I guess I kind of wanted to be like FUCK YOU FOR EXISTING but, it's life. Someday I'll learn to face it like a big girl.
Today... three different appointments. I woke up way too early, and I know I'm probably staying up way too late. But I was able to finish all of the song I started last night, minus a bridge and a title, in like ten minutes today. It's like my baby. I didn't get to hang out with Kyle today like we were planning, but it's okay... maybe tomorrow? I hung out with Hayden quite a lot, though. I don't know how I got someone as amazing as him to be my best friend, but I did.
And right now, Kayleigh and I are okay. I knew I definitely didn't want to lose her, but I also knew, I already lost the person she used to be. Though I believed her when she said she was going to try to get it back. And I'm willing to wait.
Alex on the other hand.
Rawr rawr rawr. Let's just say, I'll be pissed as shit if he gets rid of the journal. Especially if he doesn't read it. I'd like to think he'd still be in love with me. But you know.. what do I know. I'll blog more later, I'm really distracted. Maybe sneaking out with Alex Wiseman again tonight. But NOT KYLE, cause he's super lame and not able to sneak out of his house. So anyways, yeah. I'll get back to this eventually.
My Friday night was decent. I actually had a really good day at school, too. Lauren came home with me, we went to Hunstman, I saw Kyle and Michael, we met up with Abduluh, and we all chilled with a bunch of different people here and there. After we all went home, we made plans to sneak out with Abduluh and Omar. Omar was going to pick me up, we were gonna smoke, then we were gonna get Lauren and Abdul to come to his place. But they ditched. So Omar and I smoked, chilled, blah blah. Then Abdul took Lo home and Omar took me home, and we crashed. Eventually.
But it was fun; during the car ride back to drop me off, we came up with this freestyle rap about nigga's and KFC chicken and hoes and stupid shit like that. I swear I almost pissed myself. It was so funny.
Then Saturday was good, too. Lauren and I went to the PX and got a bunch of shit for our hair because we fucked it up drastically with the food coloring. Then dropped her off at her house and we both did our own hair. We both turned out looking actually really good, too! And then... that was my Saturday.
Sunday was the big day. The day I've been waiting for for.. a while. I guess. Julia, Hayden and I went to see Alex. I was excited at first, and then I realized, I was gonna get heartbroken again. So we showed up at Alex's house around... one something? Played music, convinced Hayden to get back together with Julia... so on. See, I'd die without that boy, I can guarantee it. We've been through tons together. He's the only shoulder I can really allow myself to cry on these days. Anyhoo. I told him to, cause one of us needed to be happy. He told me things would work out between me and Alex. I told him he was wrong. I was right.
After a while, we decided to walk to the restaurant to chill. About an hour later, in comes Alex's girlfriend. I broke down and cried, lots. Bluh. I guess I kind of wanted to be like FUCK YOU FOR EXISTING but, it's life. Someday I'll learn to face it like a big girl.
Today... three different appointments. I woke up way too early, and I know I'm probably staying up way too late. But I was able to finish all of the song I started last night, minus a bridge and a title, in like ten minutes today. It's like my baby. I didn't get to hang out with Kyle today like we were planning, but it's okay... maybe tomorrow? I hung out with Hayden quite a lot, though. I don't know how I got someone as amazing as him to be my best friend, but I did.
And right now, Kayleigh and I are okay. I knew I definitely didn't want to lose her, but I also knew, I already lost the person she used to be. Though I believed her when she said she was going to try to get it back. And I'm willing to wait.
Alex on the other hand.
Rawr rawr rawr. Let's just say, I'll be pissed as shit if he gets rid of the journal. Especially if he doesn't read it. I'd like to think he'd still be in love with me. But you know.. what do I know. I'll blog more later, I'm really distracted. Maybe sneaking out with Alex Wiseman again tonight. But NOT KYLE, cause he's super lame and not able to sneak out of his house. So anyways, yeah. I'll get back to this eventually.
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