eternity will never be enough for me.

world... stop snowing.
everything's happening for a reason.
we jacked someone's pizza last night.
we robbed giant of all my money.
(see how much sense that makes)
i feel like this winter, i'm going to lose you.
him.
forever.
if he can't have me, no one can have him.

my brain is pumping an unusual secretion of lust.

i want you to know that february 28 still means february 28 to me.
it'll never lose significance, but that particular february gained all the significance in the world.
and i don't know how to say i'm sorry and i don't know how to let go when the time is right.
i don't know how to lose, something you've been doing your entire life.
but i know how to love and i love you,
but the feeling that you're the first real person that was placed in my life for me to start a new life with
that's going to go away.
forever.

i don't want you to read this.
it doesnt mean a lot.
but for every horrible time we've shared, i want you to always remember the good.
and not be sad.
cause that's what i'm trying to do.
things weren't always horrible. remember that.
remember the kid you used to be, the easy going stoner with the donkey laugh that played geometry wars on my computer and got me into techno and smoked us all out when no one was home.
remember that you loved me, when i was a good person.
just don't leave.